"Particular about making friends? Feel like going into more depth on that?"
Asked by Anonymous
Sure. I guess I could. Though the only way I can explain what I mean is by being blunt. So that’s what you’re going to get.
I have a tendency of attracting two types of people. The type of people who have a lot of personal issues who basically need someone to hold their hand through everything and the type of people who are constantly looking for approval from everyone around them. I do want to say that there are a lot of people who don’t fall into those two categories. I’m just saying that the majority of people I meet and form some sort of acquaintance with, fall under those two types.
Now, I’m not saying that there’s anything wrong with those type of people. All I’m saying is that I’ve reached that point in my life where I really need to focus on myself and surround myself with people who will have a positive impact on my life and whom I can, hopefully, do the same for. I can’t afford to spend time nurturing someone or being the object for someone to seek approval from, when I’ve got my own shit to deal with.
I’m also a bit hesitant to make new friends as I have this underlying fear that when I meet someone new and form a close bond with them, that something bad will happen to them. That I’ll lose them. It’s happened once before and it’s just a state of mind that I can’t seem to shake. And obviously it’s something I need to work on.
Wow. I didn’t intend on this long response and I sincerely apologize. If anyone even read this, then kudos. You deserve a cookie. Yup yup.